welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Thursday, November 10, 2011

sending out love to the universe

i miss singing this lullaby to my babies on the weekends they are here.   so even though, my lovelies, i have not tucked you in tightly tonight and stroked your hair,  i am going to send it out to the universe and pray that you hear it in your hearts.   if i could i would fix everything and soothe you and heal you, but until that day comes, close your eyes little ones and listen...

1 comment:

  1. You're a wonderful mother, Nina! Your girls are such cuties. Take care and have a wonderful day!