welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

just call me abby for now...

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instead of "brain" though, replace it with "cervix". 

there now, it all makes so much more sense for you right?  odd feeling to just be left waiting in the "to be announced" Results Room though.   one thing, no two things, that make me feel less like freaking out is that i know i am not unique and THAT my friends has made a world of difference in my reaction today. the other one is my roomate who does not tolerate drama and instead offers up something better, laughter and politically incorrect humor.  i am grateful today.

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