welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

welcome to the room

frat boy told me the other day as i was waxing poetic or prattling boorishly on about my coming out process that i am "as out as one can get. its time to get on with it".   she meant no harm, she did not come close to hurting my feelings nor did she say it to quash my still passionate reminiscing, she was just stating a fact.  she is right, its time to start something different.  my blog home had become uncomfortable for many reasons but the biggest reason is that i out grew the topic.  not that i no longer have anything gay to say,  its just that i am finding i have more.   its like buying a sofa without measuring it.  you take it home and it doesn't fit the room so you either take it back or find a bigger room.  welcome to my bigger room.  its still being furnished but you are welcome to sit on the sofa.
love nina

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