welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Saturday, July 9, 2011

nina packs up her belongings...

and personally takes another chunk of the ozone layer with her throw away utencils...


i have come to the conclusion that she who dies with the least amount of crap and belongings is truly the winner.  this is my 3rd move in 2 years.  i am beginning to get a high out of watching the bits and pieces of things that seem to follow me just because they are there get hauled away by the idaho youth ranch.   its like a huge weight off my shoulders.  its true that the furniture i have decided to bring with me will not lend itself to massive parties but then that has never happened in my lifetime anyhow.  well except that once,  boy were my parents pissed when they found out.

14 days to privacy!
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