welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Thursday, September 22, 2011

God is there...

Dedicated to our loving God
Boise United Church of Christ
Copyright ninamichelle , 2011

god is in the minutes
in the seconds
in the hours

god is in the afternoon sun or perhaps
a fleeting ray on a cloudy day…
god is in an aging garden as much as
in the bud of the flowers…
god does not always break your silence

perhaps its good to keep in mind
He might be inside it
waiting for you to find

 god is in the words we speak and
in those we choose to hold back,
maybe there is a second when we think perhaps
this will hurt more than fill in the empty,
if the conversation lacks...

 god is in our achievements
no matter how small...
or large there is no difference between the minutes after
we realize we did it
 He's there you’ll see it
if you need it
you'll feel it....

 god is in the hours
calendar days, tick tock of the clock He is there to encourage,
to comfort, to bridge the gap of whatever
you're missing...

 god is in the minutes
in the seconds
in the hours...

He is there to be heard
if you are listening...

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