welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Thursday, April 21, 2011

blessed by the people in my life

sitting here, in my bedroom, listening down the hallway  to dani singing My Girl on her guitar.

i used to, i still do,  describe my ex husband's voice as a "chocolate milk" voice.  dani's is "southern smooth" i think.   she  just picked up her banjo and started playing "dueling banjos"  to see if i was actually listening.  LOL!   i handed her the soundtrack to Andy Griffith.  i told her that as long as she knows it by morning she can play dueling banjos anytime she wants to as long as she doesn't scream "squeal like a pig" EVER.

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