welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

just a phone call...

i left my cancer in the doctor's office!  i said it was my intention... days before, hours before, and right before the proceedure and today they called and told me i'm all right!  my cervix is pink, perhaps, still in shock but once healing of tissue takes place I AM PERFECT and ready to take on my first test.  the boise foothills...  pictures to come!  give me a month... and give my trainer time to find a month... we will stand on top with pictures of triumph! 

 blessings falling like rain...  may they fall around you as well
nina

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