welcome to the next chapter...

once a long time ago, i read on a blog, "i am a lesbian but thats not all i am". i was then just teetering on the edge coming out as a lesbian. back then, although i understood what she was saying, i was completely drowning in that one dimension of my identity. i knew then i was more than also but such turmoil tends to shrink your field of vision. it is scary and exciting and anticipatory and it is exhausting.

i am almost 5 years out now. some things look differently in my life. some things are the same. but i revel in the knowledge that i am a lesbian and in the knowledge that i really am more than just... my field of vision has grown to include the wide open spaces of life's endless possibilies.

for those of you who know me, you will be able to find the familiar places of my old writings which i will have on the sidebar. for those who stumble upon me and find yourself confused by fragmented references or are struggling to come out later in life, you will find the Closer to Fine link most helpful. I recommend reading it from the beginning, it makes more sense.

one more thing, blame my lack of capital letters on e.e. cummings...

Friday, April 8, 2011

one day post op...

i am happy to say that all went well. i had a close friend come with me to hold my hand. what an awesome thing to do for someone, thank you ms. friend! the best line of the day was when ms. friend shyly asks me if she could see what a cervix looks like and i said yes. she walked around the other side of the table and says, "wow look at that! you can slice though it just like butter!" holy crap LOL! the doctor thinks my friend missed her calling.

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